Dearest of dear friend - whose existence is now
A mere memory - a triangulation of how I was
I passed the ihop where I told you I caused death
You passed the syrup - and never hated me - it was
Very dainty of you to pass your clean napkin - and
The shrug - the short smooth shrug that said it all
I passed the apartment where we met and gave money
So we could play pretend and drink and then go dance
How many clubs - how may men did I wander off with
How many times you waited and pulled me back: held
My hair and listened
Just listened - how you sat at the table as I floundered
Around on what was not the most joyous moment of life
How my dress fit in your car - and we drove around
One word from my lips: we could have gone anywhere
Instead you dropped me off
Fluffed my dress: delivered me inside: a marshmallow
Ready to prance and cut cake and take endless pictures
My dear friend
My dearest of friend as you rest or swim in the deepest
Oceans - your shell hardened - dream in blues and greens
I will be there
Such shades
Match
your milky white skin - and that small shrug when the world gives the hardest hits - a tilt of the head, a smile
And it all becomes