Sunday, December 25, 2022

nunquam deinceps retro diebus

Good Bye J. 

and i never wrote a poem 

about you to show you there's more to existence 

than life. and now you have no life but then you didn't have much of one 

while here. where did you go? what is your being - 

have you turned into the butterfly 

you always deserved 

we had so much time together, so many meals, but never again 

this christmas, i thought i would send a few words - maybe state 

i was too busy. i was always busy. and next week would have been 

no good - and the week after - 

no good. 

maybe in march, 

maybe in 

april or may. 

for your bday - perhaps or at least around it.

a simple 

lunch, simple gripes, simple. 

let us always keep it simple. never talk 

about the deepness of anyone or anything. 

or how we both just keep 

on waiting - but now that is gone - and my week 

has opened up cause 

truth be told - i was never that busy. 

i'll miss you old friend. 

i miss you already. 

not enough to speak yet 

but soon. perhaps soon. 

i can reach down 

find the skirt & the sweater 

and remember how you looked: how you looked perfectly perfect 

you turned into the butterfly