a contingency plan - yes that’s what I have us
being. A being that exists in a dimension if only
if - I get enough sleep. If I do we don’t exist if I
don’t - well that’s another train of thought. A deep
dependency in being needed: then what is want
a want is not needed until all needs are met. i hv
so many needs unmet: at least theoretically or is
it physicality. i am at an age when my purpose
is moot. no life. no merging of cells. no creation
had i to give i may have contemplated such a gift
a contemplation of a misgiving, a misfortune to
part with - a consolation gift, after all - life is
needed. what a construct of existence. when we
met i had finished. my gifts given to someone
who no longer cared or wanted or even needed
such a loss i want to tell him but i have no need
to - not any more, not ever. his loss is your joy
if only you want more than you need - if only if