Being dead has taken its toll - I still hv
Your last texts - and your first - how silly
It all is - I could never really accept you
and you knew that - and i knew that and
that is why we met every other month -
why you married someone more broken
than me - why i - when i opened the door
to my x husband the fear ran through me
it was a moment of green lingerie - we never
spoke of it: never will. a youthful indiscretion
i took too seriously - it was fear simple fear
of years of programming. he hid it too
well - the only man in my youth i had
had he been free - as all jazz should be
he would have resonated your beauty
had i been stronger - more open: i may
have saved you - and we could be having
lunch today
but today it is raining