i cant even grasp the immensity of my actions
how one moment all is sane and the next it all
becomes numb. in an attempt to help i have
mixed it all up - so much so all i want to do is
sleep. unencumbered, barely alive would work
how i do explain, justify, equate my actions to
my words. it was more than a lapse of judgment
it was a crux - it happens from time to time
a lapse that creates a momentary gasp of joy