i miss you profoundly
is that so hard to ponder 
amongst your sermons 
today my cat died. the first of many 
& i wondered what verse 
to use & so i thought of you, beloved
seventeen years of my life 
wrapped into a being the size of my arm 
her blue eyes his not yours 
the blue of your eyes is deeper than my mind allows 
how strange to distinguish 
how strange to remember 
how twenty nine years collapse 
at the moment of a dead cat's life
what verse my love, what verse